When ego meets someone who has arrived and speaks from the state of freedom, ego becomes frightened. Someone did it, just straight forward. No way it will listen to how it was possible! It will continue to believe to an image of spiritual path and to fillers and ritualized actions.
It is possible to be free from irritations and anger, but you stay on the way.
I understand how hard it is. It seems the whole spiritual and human worlds are against it. But Someone still helped me.
Jesus said - Love God more than anything else. I say - love only God and other will come naturally.
Don't make conclusion about me based on my profile picture.
Just a simple "trick":
You are a temple of God.
Be like a lamb.
God will sacrifice you, just trust Him as Issac did.
If you become meek and humble like a lamb, you will sense the presence of God. He will visit you not to lift you up and make a teacher, but to replace your self-identity. Strip away your perspectives, your visions, ideologies and opinions and be pure hearted in front of Him - pure means empty.
When you will live through connection with God - your only love, you will have to adapt your prayer and start praying without words. Words are limited forms of what you really have to say. Wordless prayer will become your day and night meditation. Living through this meditation you will start seeing through His eyes, understanding what He understands. Going through desert, He will make what is His yours. His objective vision replaces your subjectivity.
Pain and discomfort. After experiencing transcendence, make them your friends. Welcome them.
You don't need retreats and teachers.
Of course, it depends of what is your choice - living through God, or through your ego.